Sunday, 20 July 2014

Questions and Answers

Tonight I've found myself doing a form of character self-assessment exercise. The following Q&A section is taken from a scenario whereby I interview myself

Q: Are proud of yourself?
A: For certain things that I've accomplished, I feel proud. 
Q: Do you have regrets? 
A: Yeah lying to my folks when I was younger. Getting found out brings you back down to Earth with a bump
Q: Are you happy when you're part of a group or are happier being alone?
A: I can function well in a team but ultimately I prefer to operate on my own.
Q: Does your happiness depend on yourself or the actions of others? 
A: My happiness is mainly dependent on me, but my sadness is also mainly my own fault
Q: Are you happy with what you're doing?
A: Although I get some satisfaction from what I do for a living,but ultimately it's my writing that I'd like to be doing permanently
Q: How will you be you measure your success?
A: If I can make my writing work be seen by even just a few, and make some money from it, then that to me is a success
Q: Do you know where you want to do?
A: I'd like to make it as a writer in New York City
Q: What scares you?
A: As strange as it may seem for someone who enjoys operating on his own, the thought that scares me the most is actually dying alone. Not finding someone to spend the golden years with petrifies me 
Q: Are you happy?
A: In terms of the fact I'm alive, yes I'm happy. On an emotional level, I am nowhere close to happy. 
Q: Would your friends regard you as a help or a hindrance?
A: I think most would regard me as a help, as I'm always around if they need someone to talk to. But sometimes, I feel like my low self esteem drags them down from their happiness. Another of my regrets I guess



I know there's things I need to work on. It's all about how successful I become at that

Friday, 11 April 2014

Different Sides

It's been a while since my last post so I thought it was about time to correct that.


Just less than two weeks ago, I returned from a vacation in New York. It was definitely one of the best experiences of my life, just feeling the rush of the City That Never Sleeps.

Since I've returned it's led to much thinking about what I'd like to do with my future (Yes people, I'm nearly as undecided want I want to with my life now, as I was when I left school)

To give this some perspective, from a certain angle in my house, on a good day I can see about 6 or 7 miles East and about 13 miles West. I equate this to looking where I've been and where I want to go. To the East, where the sun rises. Where everything has gone before. Relationships, friendships, growing up. Good times and bad times.

Then I look to the West. The land of the setting sun. The direction of my favourite place on Earth (If you guessed New York, give yourself a pat on the back) The direction in which many of the people I converse with on a daily basis live. (God bless Twitter). Maybe I need to look into taking the leap and take myself over there on a permanent basis. After all, to the West is all manner of places I still want to visit and re-visit. Boston, Philadelphia, Chicago, Seattle, San Francisco, Los Angeles, the list goes on and on.

But to close, I think, and I hope my future lies in a place so good, they named it twice. Good ol' NYC. It's where I've set the location for my ongoing novel, and hopefully it's the place that one day I'll call home.

To the future and all the excitement that goes along with it