I started the year in the same way that many other people do. I made a bucketload of resolutions that I was going to try and accomplish, and like most other people, through being stuck in the Bermuda Triangle of a lack of time, patience and willpower, I didn't accomplish any of them.
My main goal was to try and finish the novel that I'm working on. By my standards I've actually been relatively successful, as in I've actually managed to write more than half the book.
On the love side of things, 2013 has totally sucked. For those of you who don't know me, my last relationship ended 18 months ago, when my then girlfriend informed that one reason that she didn't love me anymore is because I was too overweight. The comment cut deep. Very deep. To feel that kind of emotional hurt is not something I'd bestow on my worst enemy. As you can imagine, things like that play in my mind, even now when we've both moved on with our respective lives. More than once this year, I've thought about taking the ultimate way out. I'm ok admitting that, especially as I didn't act on it. Anyway back to relationship issues in 2013. The one date I've been on this year, taught me that when it comes to dating, I should take my rightful place as mayor of the friendzone. I met a woman who I seemed to get along with well. We go out for dinner, seemingly have a nice time. After that evening, heard nothing for nearly a week. Finally when I hear from her again, she informs me that she only views me as a friend. You could see how things like that could give a guy a complex. Even two days I'm writing this, I've been turned down for another date. I suspect a fair few people feel the same, where the feeling of rejection is like a sucker punch to the gut. It will always scare the life out of me to think that, even though everyone is supposed to have that one certain someone who is destined to be with them, that I will never find that person. I guess that's the fun of the chase.
The main thing I'm grateful for this year, is the outstanding group of friends that I've amassed, and the fact they've probably collectively saved me. If they're reading this, and they think they're one of the people in question, they probably are, and for that I will be eternally grateful.
So onto the New Year. Vacation to New York in March to celebrate my birthday to look forward to. As for resolutions, I've learned my lesson. My main goal is to finish my novel. Anything good that happens outside of that will be a delightful bonus. As for love, who knows.
To great times and big dreams
2014 be warned. I'm coming for you
